Completely Naked

I wish I had a puppy tonight

Hey dudes . . . What's up.  I'm kinda feeling down tonight and just wanting to be alone.  Not really sure why.  I sat on the couch under a pile of blankets, watching American Idol, finishing off a whole bucket of ice cream.  The ice cream part was good.  I love sweets.   A.I. was good. Mandessa rocks, I don't care what the judges say.  I think the boys have it this year though.

Anyway, Nate comes back tomorrow which will help but the whole fucking week's forecast calls for rain.  That's not helping at all.  I hate rain.

Sorry for such a downer post.

Tomorrow will be better.

night dudes or morning depending on where you are in the world.

j

Spank Poker Rules

So I am bored and alone tonight.  It's raining and cold out.  I have no plans, sexual or otherwise, so I'm surfing the net.

I found this interesting set of rules for spank/strip poker and thought I would post it.  This came from a spanking story site called:  malespank.net.  It's complicated but hot.  I may have to try it or some more simple version. 

Game requirements: deck of cards, 25 poker chips, variety of spanking instruments.
At least four players, with 4 to 6 working best. Above that number two groups.

Rules:
First to encourage people to be on time. No one can arrive more than 30 minutes before start time. In order of arrival host spanks first to arrive 10 swats by hand over jeans. First to arrive spanks second to arrive 15, and so fourth adding five each time. Late arrivals get same but with paddle.

First dealer is guy spanked most recently. Dealer rotates clockwise after that.  Deal 3 card poker hand face up. Winning hand will spank lowest hand. Use traditional ranking of poker hands (obviously there is no full house).

Players can return up to two cards to dealer, but takes a chip for each card returned. The chips count in the penalties below if the dealer wins the hand.

All cards remain face up until after penalty.

Winner returns this rounds chip(s) to bank. Loser may use chips as outlined below. All others hold their chips.

A player may see the rules anytime except while setting up cards for their own penalty.  Loser draws one additional card to add to their hand.

Now the creative part, the loser can arrange their cards to determine their spanking. Loser must arrange their cards left to right from other players' perspectives.

First card is number of swats. numbered cards are that number of swats, Jack is 12, Queen and King 15, and Ace 20. Loser must play a heart here if they hold one, if hold more than one heart is loser's choice.
Second card is penalty position. If player plays a black card here, player can request penalty take place in private. 2-5 is over the lap or OTK, 6 is over leg (spanker stands and rests one foot on low stool), 7 is over back of couch, 8 is over stool or ottoman, 10 is on floor face down butt up over pillows, Jack is OTK spanker allowed to hold cock and balls, Queen is lying on back legs up, King is what we call the throne position, Ace is spanker's choice. Throne position uses an upholstered chair with arms. Loser faces front of chair and kneels on seat and grips the top of the chair. Loser then bends from waist to top of back of chair.

Third card is dress (or undress card). 2 through 4 as dressed, 5 & 6 drop trou, 7 drop trou and spanker pulls down underwear, 8 & 9 drop trou stay dropped until lost, 10 trousers and underwear stay dropped until lost, Jack lose pants, Queen & King lose pants and underwear, ace lose all clothing. Remember once item is lost, it is lost until end of match.

Fourth card is implement also per list. 5 or less is hand, 6 is light paddle (something like hair brush), 7 is ruler, 8 is belt, 9 is leather paddle, 10 is strap, Jack is switch (if possible spankee fetches a fresh one), Queen or King spankee choses cane or frat paddle, and Ace is spanker's choice (though we exclude cane from choices).

Play should now continue in this order.

Any player, who is not a winner or loser can give one chip to the loser for each 2 or 3 in their hand. If the 2 or 3 was from the first three cards dealt, they can also give a bonus chip.

The next set of rules has been nicknamed the cry baby rules. If a player loses a hand while holding seven or more chips, not only do they get their penalty but spend the next hand in the corner (or presenting their butt in some other way). If caught peaking or not presenting, it is ten cracks (1/2 swing) of the paddle from the next hands loser (after the loser takes their own penalty) and back to the corner for one more hand. All chips of all players are returned to bank on return of cornered player. This rule was added to incentify guys to play less conservatively.

If the loser took chips in the last round and the dealer wins, the dealer can take back those chips and replaces one card per chip in the losers hand with cards from his own hand into any position he wants. If loser already has a heart in the first spot, dealer can only replace with another heart.  If player to right of loser has queen of hearts can replace the queen with any card in loser's hand. A lot of guys lose their pants and underwear because of this rule. This play is at the card holders option.

A loser may return two chips to the bank and take the next undealt card. Loser must declare card they are replacing before drawing and may only do so once per hand.

This is called the guts play. If a loser is holding five or more chips, they can call 'guts'. Now they draw the next undealt card. If lower than the lowest card of the winner, the winner and loser will change places for the penalty. If loser card is not lower than the winners lowest card, the number of swats is doubled. Either way loser returns all chips to bank and cry baby rules are suspended.

If any player holds a 3 card royal flush (any three sequential cards between 10 and high Ace of the same suit), the loser penalty phase is dropped and the royal flush holder gives ten whacks with his choice over current dress to all other players.

All penalties carried out immediately. Unless play black in position spot, all penalties are done so as to allow other players to watch.

If you have a fun strip or spank game or something with naked dares and penalties, I would love to hear it.  More than likely it will get me hard like this one and I'll have to jack off to it!

My boyfriend

Nathan and I went on our second date: an early dinner and then a movie.  I was back before 9pm.  He didn't even come in.  He had to get up really early to catch a plane and will be gone for a few days.  We kissed at the door and said goodbye.  I teared up.  I don't know why.  It's not like he doesn't go back home every Sunday night.   He held me close and said he could spend the night.  I knew he couldn't though and walked him back to his truck.

We talked mostly about our relationship at dinner and where it is headed.  He said he was falling more and more in love with me as each day passes.  It's happening for me too.  We held hands walking around the movie theatre.  I was proud to have him at my side.  My inner voice kept saying, over and over again, 'look at me, look who is at my side, this is my boyfriend!'

Abs by A&F

Fuck dude, I love being gay.  I like that I am a boy who likes boys.  I like everything about guys from their hard, tight bodies to their angled, chiseled features.  I love their smells.  I love that they love cars, electronics, sports, and science fiction.  I love watching guys lift weights.  I love watching guys sing and play guitar.  I love watching guys kiss.  I love seeing them smile.  I love watching two guys rub their hard cocks together.  I wouldn't want it any other way dude.  I fucking love being gay!

Nathan gave up his weekend for me

Nathan stayed home with me this weekend.  It didn't take him long to make up his mind.  Jeff found some other dudes to go snowboarding with.  Jeff was sneezing and coughing when he left so I know he is probably miserable now but he is doing what he wanted to do.

Nathan bought ingredients at Whole Foods to make me soup for my cold.  I'm already starting to feel much better.

Since I was home and bored, I made space for him in my closet for some of his things.  I showed it to him when he got back and asked him to bring some stuff over permanently.  He smiled.  His eyes lit up.  He hugged me and lifted me up as my blanket fell to the ground.  I was naked underneath and got a hard-on as we kissed.

He asked me on another date Sunday night if I am feeling better.  I should be ok by then.  He is in the shower now and is sleeping over tonight.  I can't wait to have his strong muscular arms wrapped around me.

Stunning

Makeover

Dude.  Check it out.  Alex gave his blog, "The Great Cock Hunt" a makeover.  It rocks bro!

S/M Mecca

This post is for Matt of WI from down under (Australia does rock dude!) and Aaron.  This is what I am talking about boys.  This is the Mecca for this kind of shit.

A safe place in SF to do S/M.  I haven't checked it out yet but . . .

A list of people, webs and other shit in CA related to S&M.  Check out the SF shit.  They even have women to women S/M (the exiles)

Where I met my new sub/master.  I know it's gotta be the worst place but sometimes when you are careful it works.  Go into M seeking M and search on spanking or spank or doctor or bondage or cbt.

A place where you can be forced naked, spanked, pissed on or just plan fucked on a given theme night.  Check out their calendar.

Where I get what little S/M gear I have.  Go shopping dudes. . .

A street fair where guys walk around hard and buck naked, even in front of police and don't get arrested.  Check out the pic section.  It is not illegal to be naked in SF as long as you're not stroking one out.

These are my most favorite porn videos in the world.  I could watch them all day.  They are based in SF.  The website sucks but the videos are super high quality with the most unbelievably cute guys getting tortured.  The videos helped me realize I had this fetish.  The pic above is from this collection.

God I'm so fucking turned on right now.

Fuzzy Hottie

Hey dude.  Did you know that a lot of the pics on this blog are medium to high resolution.  If you click on the pic it gets much bigger.  If you download it, you can zoom into the pic and really get up close and personal with the subject.  It may take a little longer to load if you don't have cable or dsl but well worth it in the end.  This guy, for example, has beautiful skin tone and a light covering of hair:  a stunning combination when you add the muscle definition!  Take a closer look.

On a personal note, I just caught a fucking cold.  I'm going downhill rapidly and right now it doesn't look like I will be going to ski country this weekend.  Nathan and Jeff are just looking at me and shaking their heads.  "Are you sure you can't go?" they ask.  Nate is so torn between going and staying.  He won't admit it but I can see it in his eyes.  He wants to take care of me but this may be his last chance to hit the slopes.  I want him to go.  I hate being around people when I'm sick.

All these sensations that come with it are so weird.  Everything is so foggy.  I get sick only once a year so I'm glad its going to be over soon.  The other weird thing is this cold is making me extra horny.  What the fuck is that all about?!

later dudes

j

Drruunk

Jared's New Master

I'm going to just dive right into what happened on Monday afternoon.  Nathan came with me because Dave had to work.  I had to do a little begging and he finally agreed and now admits that he liked it.

Just a quick note on the guy who did this for me:  I'm not going to use his name at all.  I'm just going to call him sub/master, because normally, he is a sub but he agreed to take me on a journey as my master and mentor me along.

Here we go.

Snowboard Naked

The boys and I are planning a long weekend of snowboarding this coming Friday.  Just once I would like to go down the hill like this!

I had an awesome experience with the sub/master and Nathan Monday.  Yup, Nate went too.  I'll be writing it up in the next day or so.

Other Jareds

There was a time when I lusted after this guy.  He has a cool name and a hot bod.

I love his deep blue eyes, his hair, his abs and his quirky personality.

But what the fuck has he done!  All this for a stupid fucking movie?  Will the hot guy ever be back?!

Nathan and Jeff Top Jared

I woke up and smiled as I looked over at Nathan and Jeff.  They spent the night in my bed last night and it felt like old times.  Nathan was on top of the covers as usual.  He was asleep but naked and sportin morning wood.  Jeff was buried under the covers and all I could see was his platinum blond hair sticking out of the top of the sheets.  I got up for coffee and started this entry.

They came over last night to watch some movies.  We didn't really feel like going out in the cold and rain even though there was a hot underwear party at a club over in SOMA.  In our usual style, Nathan hung out naked, I was in white CK boxers and Jeff wore these slinky silk low-rise briefs.  We watched two disturbing movies that I had seen before but they hadn't: Requiem for a Dream and The Dreamers. 

During the second one, there was some pretty erotic stuff going on.  Nathan and I lay on the couch together and I watched his cock grow erect a couple of times during those scenes.  I find it hot to see him in his natural state, not caring that his cock is shifting from soft to hard and back.  I'm not even sure he realized it happened, but I couldn't keep my eyes off his body as he lay there.

Neither Nathan nor Jeff had showered the whole day and they worked out and ran together before dinner.  Each had tremendous body odor that was driving me crazy in a good way.  I love the way they smell after they've been sweating.  Many times I won't let Nathan shower.  He gets mad at me sometimes about it and just has to, at the very least, wash his hair so it looks good. 

After the movie, Nate said he was going to take a shower.  Jeff was in the chair flipping channels.  I couldn't let him shower and lose his smell before I got a piece of him.  I started fondling his cock to make him stay with me.  He loves for me to play with his cock.  Sometimes we lay on the couch watching TV for hours and I play with his cock the whole time.  It worked just as I had planned.  He stayed, moaning and kissing me as his cock grew.  "Jared man, you're going to make me want to fuck you."  "Hey guys," Jeff piped in.  "I'm feeling a little lonely over here."

Nathan motioned for him to come over and he ripped his underwear off and jumped in between us.  Nathan and Jeff have always been my sex buddies.  My new relationship with Nathan will never change that.   

We were all now laying on my couch getting hornier by the second.  The boys smelled so good.  I tweaked Jeff's nipples and looked down at his swelling cock.  He moved down and pulled my underwear off.  I had already grown hard.  We kissed each other and rubbed our hands all over each other's bodies.  I smelled their armpits.  I licked their salty  bodies.    It was hard to tell who I was touching and licking and who was touching me, but fuck who cared at that point cause it was all hot and they tasted and smelled so fucking good.

Nathan slipped down from the couch and onto the floor pulling my legs with him.  He went down on my cock, licking and sucking it and my balls.  Jeff mounted my torso and shoved his cock in my mouth.  Nathan was really working my cock.  I was getting crazy and took it out on Jeff.  I yanked on his balls and shoved several fingers up his ass.  He moaned loudly, "Oh yeah, fuck Jared." 

Nathan stood up and with one swift motioned pulled Jeff off me and replaced himself in Jeff's position, shoving his cock in my mouth.  Jeff went underneath him and, I think, was licking his ass as he grabbed my balls and rolled them in his hand.  I fished around for Jeff's cock but couldn't reach.  Nathan was fucking my face so hard though and Jeff was pulling on my cock so much, it was hard for me to concentrate on anything else.

I pushed Nathan's cock away and blurted out, "Nathan, I want to see you fuck Jeff."  Jeff was like, "No fucking way dude."  Jeff is a total top.  He hates getting fucked unless he is high and really horny.  I've only seen him get fucked a few times and knew this would set him off.

"Wrestle you for it," Nathan responded.  He got up and pushed the coffee table away.  "No way man."  "Come on," Nathan lunged at Jeff and they both fell to the floor.  Nathan held him down and tickled him while Jeff squirmed around and yelled at Nate to let him go.  They wrestled around and Jeff continued to insist that he wasn't going to be fucked tonight no matter what.  Nathan had Jeff in a hold and then Jeff wiggled his way out and pushed Nate to the floor hanging onto him until Nathan wiggled his way out.  They went at this for a while until they exhausted themselves and stopped..

"Nathan man, let's just fuck Jared," Jeff said still out of breath.  My eyes widened and I moved to get up from the couch and run.  Nathan grabbed me.  "Ok dude that's a great plan."  He held me down while Jeff went to get the condoms.  "Nathan, I don't want to get fucked."  "Come on Jared.  You know you like it."  Jeff came back with a condom already unsealed.  He slipped it on.  Nathan moved me in position over the couch and my throbbing cock pressed against it.  They are both bigger and stronger than me and I almost always get the 'short end of the stick.'  "Come on guys, I want to see you fuck each other.  Really, I don't want to get fucked."  "No Jared you're the bitch tonight."  Nathan slapped my ass and held tight as Jeff's cock entered me.  "I continued to protest but it was in vein.  Jeff wasn't kidding around.  He was pounding my ass hard.  Fuck it felt awesome.  I did like it.  Nathan had a death grip on me and kissed me, swirling his tongue inside my mouth. 

Nathan pushed me up to almost a stand up position while Jeff's cock was still inside me.  Jeff waited for the adjustment and then continued pounding away again and Nathan kissed me and worked my cock and balls over.  I was in heaven pushing my ass into Jeff's crotch..  He was saying shit like, "Oh fuck yeah," and kept getting more verbal as he was closer to cumming.  I guess Nathan saw the signs on Jeff's face and pulled me up off his cock.  I turned around and saw Jeff rip off the condom and stroke his cock.

Nathan turned me around and shoved his own cock up my ass.  "I love you dude," he said and reached underneath me grabbing my cock.  He pounded my ass and stroked my cock.  Somewhere in the middle of this I heard Jeff moaning, "I'm cumming, I'm cumming."  As Nathan pounded me and stroked my cock, I got closer and closer to the point of no return.  I grabbed my cock from Nathan, stroked and shot my load all over the floor.  Nathan pulled out of me, ripped his condom off and came all over my back.

Jeff was already in the shower and Nathan and I joined him.  We went to sleep in my bed together at almost 2am this morning.

Naked Dares

I couldn't make it to the 'session' last night.  Work is fucking killing me.  I guess it's natures way of balancing out the fact that my personal life is going so well.  I've rescheduled for Monday which is a holiday for me.

I've been chatting with this dude online about getting together for some outrageous naked dares.  I get hard every time I think about being forced to strip naked and told what the next dare is.  He is into this too so we will, most likely, trade dares and penalties.  It could be something as simple as show me your hole, or run down the street naked or it could be more daring like walk out of the dressing room in a store naked to get the next size.

It's going to be difficult to get together right now since he lives so far away and my job is so unpredictable.  I'm hoping everything will get back to normal soon.  In the meantime, I'm gathering a list of ideas and will be prepared for him.  If you have any ideas let me know.

Nathan and I are going to the movies today.  It's cold out so that's what we do when we don't want to be out.  He doesn't normally wear underwear and I plan to stick my hand through his fly to keep it warm.   We might have a little naked dare of our own!

Physical Activity

It's time for me to get back into some S&M.  I haven't done it in a while now and I'm really itching to get back into it.  I need it!  I'm so fucking stoked about it again!  I've been talking to another much more experienced sub and he is willing to mentor me and take me through a session himself.  He doesn't have much equipment like the other dude but I feel better about him knowing he has experienced what I want to experience. 

Nathan is 100% supportive of this and told me to say so.  He doesn't want to be part of it right now though and that is ok with me.  My friend Dave is going to chaperone.  We do it at 11pm tonight.

Nathan and I also have a jam packed weekend so I won't get to post it until late Sunday or early Monday.

Number Fourteen

Nathan picked me up around 7:30pm and we headed over to dinner in the Mission.  It was freezing out (for California).  We had planned to stroll over on foot but it was just to damn cold for me and I called him up and demanded, in a cute way, that we drive over.  Its no secret that I am a wimp when it comes to whether.

I heard his truck door slam outside, he insists on driving this really old, moderately restored 1940's/50's pickup truck.  I peaked outside as he walked up, his footsteps pounding the stairs leading up to my place.  He was so fucking cute all dressed up in his dark blazer and dress denim jeans.  His tie was meticulously disheveled, his hair perfectly straight and his 5 o'clock shadow nicely grown in.   

I greeted him at the door, we kissed and I invited him in.  He had beautiful red and white speckled roses in tow.  He was nervous.  This was our first official date in the 'courtship'.  Yeah, we have gone out numerous times and known each other for years but it was different now.  We were different to each other, in a good way.

On the way to the restaurant he took my hand in his in between shifting gears.  I teased him about having to split his attention between his two loves, the truck and me.  I was also praying that we didn't break down on the way there.  Although it would have been hot to watch him take off his shirt, as he always does, lift up the hood and go to work on whatever the hell broke this time.  I wish he would get rid of that truck but he loves it and so I'll live with it.

About halfway there I noticed he left his surfboard in the cargo area.  We had to turnaround and go back to my place to drop it off.  He apologized over and over but it really didn't bother me.  Then we couldn't find parking, which made us even more late for our reservation and our having to deal with a very upset host.  I was to blame for making him drive.  We could have just walked the ten or so blocks and been there already.  I made sure that he knew that it wasn't his fault.  He was a little down and starting to have a bad night.

He had already called ahead and had the table set with rose pedals; a small package that I assumed was number fourteen, and a bottle of sparkling bubbly.  He ran around the table and pulled the chair out for me.  We sat, drank and eventually ordered.  Nathan told the waitress this was a romantic occasion for us and that he was madly in love with me.  I don't think she knew what to do with that and just read us the specials and took or order.

Before our meal arrived he gave me the present, a very small box wrapped in the same pink paper most of the others had been wrapped in.  I tore it open to find a beautiful black braided choker with a small heart attached to it.  "I made it," he said excitedly.  "Not the heart.  I got that inscribed, but the choker."  I looked at the back of the heart: 'N heart J' it said.  I hugged and kissed him, then unclasped the choker and put it on.  I couldn't see it but from his expression he was very please with himself and happy that I was excited to put it on.

We finished dinner and then headed back to my place where we spent the night together;  great love-making sex, passionate love-making sex.  This was by far the most romantic Valentines I have ever had in my life.

It's a trend

I had a feeling these were making a comeback.  After my little self portrait I did some online research, found these and bought the pair at undergear.  I know its a cheesy catalogue but they seem to be getting some decent brands now.  I think you can also get em at Rufskin cause that's the brand.  Fuck, between the super low rise jeans and the high shirts I really have to work out my abs!

If you guys buy these or some others or make your own be sure to send me a pic.  I'll post it if you want but please give me your express permission to do so if you dare!

Valentines

There's more when you get to my place.  I know you can't stand it now that you know there is a surprise waiting for you.  Dude you are just going to have to wait . . .

Nathan Spanks Jared

I barely opened the door and Nathan entered with force and presence as he always does.  He is either yelling for me at the top of his lungs, or picking me up and kissing me or introducing a new friend or tickling me.  It doesn't matter what it is that he does, it's how he does it.  This time he had a gift and he wasn't about to wait for me to close the door and settle into the living room or bedroom.  It was Valentines gift number ten; a really small package wrapped in pink tissue.  He wanted me to open it right there at the door. "This is the first part of a two part gift," he said excitedly, "It was a little last minute planning," I took it from him, giggling and blushing cause even though it was number ten, I still couldn't get used to the idea that someone was treating me so sweetly.  Especially someone like Nathan whom I've known for ten years, who has been like a big brother to me in strength and wisdom, not in age, a big brother who teased and taunted me all those years but has now, somehow, fallen in love with me. 

It was underwear, tiny pink low rise briefs with little stars on them, and a second pair, white with fire trucks.  'Oh fuck', I thought, 'he read my blog entry' and then 'Oh good.  He's not mad.'

"Jared, you are going to strip and put the pink ones on for me and then you'll be getting part two."  I closed the front door, turned and headed for my bedroom.  "No!" he said sternly.  "You'll strip right here in front of me."  I stepped back to my original position, felt a stir in my pants, faced him and took off my clothes.  My cock grew as I stripped and was rigid by the time I pulled off my underwear.  I fumbled to take off the label pinned to the new ones and then slipped them on.  My cock wouldn't go in them.  I kept pushing it down to the side to tuck it but it kept popping back up.  Nathan reached over and adjusted it so it was sticking half way out.  "This is how you will wear it."

He grabbed me by the arm, led me to the bedroom and pushed me down on the bed.  "Wait right here."  He left and headed toward the kitchen.  Seconds later he was back with a kitchen chair, placed it in the middle of the room and sat.  "Come here and lay across my lap."  I approached him and he pulled me face down over his lap.  Nathan has never done this before and he was so serious and into it.

Without warning and hastily, his hand landed squarely on my pink star underwear covered ass.  It stung.  He is strong and he wasn't taking a slow warm-up approach.  "You like that Jared."  A half yes was all I could say before his hand landed again.  "Fuck," I said.  He spanked me again.  Then another and another.  I squirmed in his lap.  The waistband of my briefs was rubbing against my cock.  He held my upper torso tight and continued.  "Ouch, fuck, Nate, dude," I yelled louder.  I started to tear up as the spanking went from painful to unbearable.  "Fuck Nathan," I screamed,   "Stop, fuck that hurts, fuck, fuck fuck!"  I wiggled my way out of his lap.

"And that was the second part of your present!"  He grinned and was quite proud of himself.  "Will you stand up, please" I said to him in a submissive tone. "And take off your shirt."  I unzipped his pants and yanked his underwear down.  His cock was hard too and pre-cum had stained his underwear.  I was happy.  This confirmed that he was as excited about this as it was exciting to me.

I wrapped my lips around his cock and looked up, past his abs and huge chest, at his eyes.  He was looking at me.  "You're my boy now Jared" I grabbed his balls and sucked on his cock.  I felt so warm inside having been spanked by him and now on my knees, submitting to him, giving him pleasure.  He moaned as I deep-throated him.  "You're my little Jared and no one else's."  "Oh yeah, that's right, suck my cock dude."

I pushed my underwear down under my balls and stroked my cock as I sucked Nathan's.  He took over and began fucking my mouth.  I held on to his balls, stroked my cock and tried not to gag as he went faster and faster.  "Fuck dude, fuck," he said as he tried to pull away.  His body gave up his cum before he was able to break away.  I held on and took it all in.  I wanted to eat his cum, to taste it.  I wanted some of him inside me.  Just about the time he was done, I shot my load. 

He bent down to kiss me but I yanked him down on to ground and straddled him, "Nathan, that was fucking hot dude."  He spanked my ass again playfully.  Let's go shower, I have pizza coming.

We watched TV while lying on the couch later that night; him in his hockey undies and me in my new fire truck ones.

Day at the Beach with Nathan

I am still mesmerized by the waves I saw the other day.  I researched Maverick's more in depth and came across these pics.  Nathan and I went back out to the beach today.  It was sunny and 70 degrees.  It has been sunny all week.  We live and breath by the ocean and the sun.

This is an example of the awesome power the ocean has.  I am so drawn to power like that.  We sat for hours, watching the waves, talking about life, about us, about where we have been together as friends and where we are headed in the future.  We had the greatest sex last night after he read my 'submissive thoughts' post.  I may write about it later.

He wants to 'court me properly' as he put it.  I laughed and asked him what that means.  He doesn't want to just go from being friends to being lovers overnight.  He wants to take me out on dates to great dinners, plays, and movies.  He wants to woo me with presents.  He wants to take me on romantic getaways.

Then, when the time is right and our love continues, he wants to ask me to be his partner in life, to get married, to be registered or whatever is available to us at that time.

I'm glad that he wants to take it slow and do this right.  I'm not yet where he is in our relationship and I need it to happen naturally.  I need to let myself get to where he is.  I know it will happen.  I feel it.

We are going on a proper date Tuesday.  He asked me to wear a dinner jacket.  I said ok as long as I could wear a surfer tee underneath it.  He laughed, kissed me on the forehead and said no.

Other Jareds

I never really paid any attention to this guy, but the other day his first name caught my attention.  Guys named Jared always catch my attention for obvious reasons.

I decided to watch his new show Supernatural.  It was actually good and he seems to be a decent actor.  He has a sexy, rugged demeanor.

Completely Submissive Thoughts

At the risk of alienating some of you, I have some deep sexual gay submissive shit going on in my head that I need to get out.  So if you're not into it you may want to pass up this entry.

I've been having these thoughts.  After my experiences with a little s&m, spanking, exhibitionism, nude beaches, massages and shit I believed that I covered all the fetishes in my closet.  I mean what else could there be for me?

A combination of things that have happened in the last few weeks that may have triggered it.  It's kind of humiliating for me to admit this but I have to get it out and I have to explore it.  It's going to be hard to push that 'publish' button just as it was the doctor exam.  Fuck, this could even be weirder than the doctor exam.  I would never in a million years admit this if I wasn't anonymous to you.

Several weeks ago, I think it was that long ago, I went to this cocktail party where I was to be, and was, completely naked.  It had a twist to it though.  The host put me in real boys underoos, called me little Jared and ordered me around in front of the guests, making me feel like a submissive little boy.  I didn't like it at the time, in fact I hated it, and I was so humiliated in front of the guests.  Then, about a week ago, I answered this ad where an older man wanted someone to come over for an old fashioned over the knee spanking like, quoting here, 'all little bad boys should receive.'  I chatted with this guy for a while to set something up cause you know I like spanking and pain and shit.  He had a lot of ideas that made me nervous, like having me show up at his doorstep in little boy underwear.  He said I could pick up a pair that fit adults in the castro.  He especially wanted ones with little fire trucks on them and that he would spank me in them and make me do things that 'naughty boys do', that he would be my 'dirty old uncle'.  Every time I think about this I get stone hard.  I'm hard now writing this.

Then I start thinking about taking it further and more public.  Like maybe he could take me out to this bar in my neighborhood where older guys hang out.  He would force me to strip to my tiny underoos that barely contain my cock.  He would get me liquored up.  He would pull down my underwear and show my cock to other patrons and let them feel me up, fondle my cock and finger my anus.  Maybe I would do something to make him mad and he would yank down my underwear, spank me and make me stand in the corner naked.  Maybe he would let other guys take me in the back and molest me by jacking my cock.  Shit dudes, I don't understand it but it makes me hard to think of myself in this way.  Fuck, do I need therapy?!

To complicate this, I start thinking about my budding relationship with Nathan.  Then I think about not wanting to do this with a stranger but wanting to do this with Nathan.  I want to submit to him and let him be in complete control of me.  He could be the one yanking down my underwear in the bar.  He could say shit like, 'see this cock, this is mine, so hands off.'  Then he could pull me close to him and kiss me, his little Jared.

So none of this has happened, and I don't know if I have the balls to ever make it happen, but it is something I've been thinking about.

On a related topic, I am due for a good S&M session or spanking or something with pain.  I really need it so I've been talking with another submissive dude.  He is totally into changing roles and giving it to me, so we will see what happens.  He seems really intuitive and experienced and he knows what it feels like to be the one getting beaten.

So there it is.

later dudes

j

Ride the Wave

I didn't go to work today.  Instead, Jeff, Nathan and I headed out to watch the pros surf Maverick's.  I know it's hard to tell by the pic but those wave are between 18 and 25 feet.  You have to be fucking nuts to surf this wave, but year after year the pros show their shit.

Dude I am so turned off by this

  I mean they have awesome bodies but you gotta have the right attitude.

Tyler Sings

I took a few hours off this afternoon to get away and unwind.  I hadn't seen Tyler, the dude I wrote about here and here, in a while and called him up.  He was in his dorm hanging out, said he was playing some music and it would be great if came over to hang and listen. 

I arrived to find him shirtless and hot as ever.  There was no music playing though.  "What's up dude?"  "Hey Jared, I was just playing with some music."  "Dude, I don't hear anything."  "No man, I play guitar.  I've been practicing today."  He pointed to a guitar on his bed.  "Hey man, I didn't know you played guitar."  I walked over and picked it up.  He ran over and grabbed it from me.  "A little protective aren't you?"  "It was my Dads and yes I protect it."  "Do you want to hear something?"  "Yeah man thats what I came over for, to hear some music." 

I wasn't expecting much, but a little shirtless eye candy playing guitar was enough for me to endure whatever was about to violate my ears.  He started playing.  It was really good.  I love music and I really love acoustic music with guitars and shit.   There was no lyrics in this one.  I just sat back and watched the muscles in his arms flex as he played.  It was awesome.

He finished, laid the guitar on his bed and grabbed a beer out of his small fridge.   "Tyler dude, you've been working those abs.  Come here."  He walked over and pushed his abs toward me.  I rubbed my hand over his tight smooth muscles.  "Man dude.  That is totally hot."  "Yup," he responded.  "So do you want to hear another?"  "Yeah dude.  Go for it."

He sat back on his bed, lifted the guitar over his shoulders and kind of grinned and winked at me as it lay back in front of his torso.  My cock stirred in my pants at the site of him.  He began the song.  This one, I recognized right away.  One of my favorite songs in the world, "Everything" by Lifehouse.  I fucking creamed in my shorts when he began the lyrics.  He has a fucking amazing voice, fucking amazing.  I couldn't believe it.  I just sat there stunned as he belted it out.  He got about three quarters the way through the song and stopped.  "That's all I know right now.  I've been practicing and hopefully will have it down in a few weeks.  Did you like it?"  "Fucking amazing dude.  Where did you learn how to do that?"  "My dad sang.  He taught me."

We talked for a few hours.  He sang another song.  Then I had to go meet Nathan.  It turns out that he doesn't want to be a professional which I believe he could pursue.  He just likes doing it on the side and I respect that, but a lot of people are going to lose out not being able to hear this dude sing.  Oh yeah, Tyler went on a date with a boy and got his second blow-job.  I'm so proud.

I'm back at my flat waiting to meet Nathan.  He is working a little late again, but is due soon.  I pulled out my ipod and listened to 'Everything' again and some other songs that I like.

Here is a list of songs I've been listening to (not in any order of importance).  I mostly like the acoustic versions if I can find them:

Everything by Lifehouse
Welcome to my Life by Simple Plan
Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day
Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional
Untitled by Simple Plan
Swing, Swing by The All-American Rejects (shut up they are cute)
Superman by Five for Fighting
Story of a Lonely Guy by Blink-182
Pieces by Sum 41
Perfect by Simple Plan
Mr. Brightside by The Killers
Lost Cause by Beck
Good Riddance by Green Day
You and Me by Lifehouse
Are We the Waiting by Green Day

later

j

Number Six

Nate is sleeping in my bed right now.  I'm not yet sleepy and won't be for a while.  He came over to give me present number six.  He wanted to take me out to a small cafe a few blocks from here to get apple pie, my favorite.  He was so exhausted from work but he so wanted to keep up the present giving.  I made him take off his shirt and relax on my bed while I massaged his shoulders and back.  He needs to rest and this was my way of forcing him to do it.  He got into it a little, then started to relax and fell asleep.  I watched him sleep for a bit and then decided to run to the store to get some eggs and bread for breakfast tomorrow.  It will be nice to wake up with him in the morning and turn the giving around.

So far this is what he has done:

#1:  Made a card out of paper and crayons with a short poem.
#2:  Left a love note for me on the kitchen table spelled out in candy hearts.
#3:  Gave me a bubble bath, but this time the water and candles were pink and red.
#4:  Cooked me dinner on the grill.  The steaks were heart-shaped.
#5:  Wore underwear in front of our friends that said Nathan loves Jared.
#6:  Tried really hard to stay awake and take me out for pie.

Jockstrap Party

The jockstrap party was nothing like I anticipated, so if you got your cock in your hand ready to stroke one out, you might want to put it back.   It really was just a bunch of dudes hanging in their underwear and watching the game.  There was a little action as a few coupled up and disappeared upstairs to the loft area, but mostly we all watched football, smoked pot and ate our weight in food.

Nathan though, my god, if I wasn't in love before, his actions Sunday would have sealed it for me.  We sat together in a big leather recliner.  He put his arms around me and constantly made sure I was ok and kissed me on the forehead in between yelling at the screen.  He jumped up and got me food and drinks.  He fed me with his fingers.  He made out with me several times, even during times when the rest of the boys were intensely yelling at whatever was going on.  His cock got hard when he made out with me.  At half time he went to take a leak and came back in pink underwear that said Nathan loves Jared on the ass.  Everyone teased him but he didn't care.  He said it was Valentines present number five.

After the game was over we headed back to my place.  He bought me a single rose along the way and then we spent most of the night together making love, getting to know each other's bodies.  He had to leave me late to ready himself for work.  I missed him as soon as he left.

If I'm not already there, and I really don't know yet, I think I'm falling in love with him.

Happy football day?!

Is that how you say it?  It is Super Bowl Sunday here in America.  The only reason you would get me interested in this game is in the scenario above or if you were having a naked/jockstrap/stripping party along side watching it.  Jeff's having a jockstrap party today so I'm going.  He and Nathan love football and will be watching the game.  I am sure I will find something or someone to do.

Jeff and Jared at the Baths

Jeff and I decided to head over to Berkeley to romp naked at the bathhouse.  It's really cool there and I've hooked up with, and made a few friends along the way.  They even have a fully equipped gym that we sometimes workout at, cause you can be as undressed as you want while you pump your muscles.

We left the house late and drove over the bridge.  Jeff is such a fucking retard.  He was jumping around in his seat, jamming to I forget what band, and stripping his clothes off.  He was down underwear and sneakers by the time we arrived.  He jumped out of the car and bolted to the door.  "Jeff, man."  I yelled.  "What are you doing?"  "You can't go in like that."  "Jared, dude don't be such a prude, it's a fucking bathhouse." He opened the door and marched his ass up to the counter as I followed.

The guys at the window didn't really know what to do.  I could tell they liked what they saw, but it looked like they thought he might be high or drunk or something.  I just told them he was a fucking retard and they signed us in, but kept staring at him.  One of the guys behind the counter was really hot, just my type but had his eyes on Jeff.

We got keys to our lockers, they have rooms but exhibitionists like us never get a room, and I stripped to my boxer-briefs.  "Let's go pump up," Jeff said before I stripped off my underwear.  I left them on and we walked toward the back to the weight room.  Jeff loves working out more than he loves anything else.

This smoking hot Asian guy was in the gym area too.  He wore low-rise jeans and was shirtless and barefoot like us.  He had the most incredible v-shaped, smooth torso I have ever seen in person and really huge pecs.  The best part about him was a well defined, muscular trail that led to his crotch.  I was really attracted to this dude.  As we worked out, I just kept staring at him, but looked away when he looked back at me.  I don't know why I got so shy.  When I worked up the nerve to look at him again, he would look away from me.  We did this most of the time we worked out.  I don't think Jeff had a clue this game was going on, cause he would have done something to break the ice.  Jeff isn't the least bit shy, ever.  I have my moments, but mostly I am shy around guys I am attracted to.

Eventually the Asian guy left us.  Jeff was determined to pump up every muscle, but I finally got bored and left him to do what he had to do.  It was really dark in the club.  They had all the lights turned lower than usual and I had difficulty adjusting my eyes.  On the way back to the lockers I kept running into other dudes and getting fondled and groped.  By the time I got to the locker I had a massive erection tenting my boxers.  There was a crowd of guys in the locker area and I had to squeeze by them to get to mine.  Suddenly I felt self-conscious about having to strip naked and expose my hard-on to them.  There were a lot of cute guys and some not so cute sitting there.

I took a deep breath, stuck my fingers in the waistband and pulled them off.  My cock bobbed up and down, then stood straight up.  The guy next to me opened up his towel and grinned.  He was getting hard too.  I felt other eyes on me but didn't look around.  I grabbed my towel and headed for the showers not once covering my hard-on.

I was pleasantly surprised to find the hot Asian dude showering.  His back was turned so that I had great view of his perfect ass.  I moved toward the shower nozzle next to him, turned it on and soaped up.  He turned my way and was surprised to see me.  It was too late for him to turn away.  He smiled.  I smiled.  He looked down at my hard-on and put his head under the shower spray.  I made my move from behind him, whispering in his ear, "let me help wash your back."  He nodded that it was ok.

I massaged his shoulders and down his back with my soapy hands.  His tight smooth muscles glistened under the lather.  I moved my hands over his shoulders and down his giant pecs and swirled my fingers around his nipples.  My cock rested at the crack of his ass.  I was so close to shoving my cock between his cheeks but knew it wasn't time.  He turned around.  His hard cock grazed mine.  We started to draw a lot of attention and the showers were gettin crowded.  "Do you want to go in the back?"  he whispered.  "Yeah dude."  We grabbed our towels and headed down the hall into the back stalls, our hard-ons leading the way. 

It was pitch dark and I could barely see him.  We found a stall, hung our towels on the wall and embraced, kissing and rubbing our hands all over each other.  His skin felt so soft.  'God I love boys', I thought as I rubbed my hands up and down his chest and abs.  He moved in to kiss me and I reciprocated.  His lips touched mine.  I felt his energy connect to mine.  I held onto his ass and spread his cheeks wide as we kissed and tongued each other.  He knelt down and took my cock into his mouth.  I held onto his huge shoulders as he worked my cock.  His hands were wrapped around my legs but I felt other hands caressing my ass trying to pry my cheeks open and still others fondling my nipples.  The hands were coming out of long slender openings on all four sides of the stall.  This was a new sensation to me.  I closed my eyes and let the hands caress my body trying to take in everyone of them.  Someone's fingers began to probe my hole and I arched my back to give them better access.  Fuck it was hot.  I was getting closer and closer to shooting my load.  I pulled him away from me and let him know it was his turn, but before I went down on him, I wanted more kisses and more groping, my groping of his hot body.  I love to run my hands all over a hot guy.  I pinched his nipples and grabbed his balls hard, testing his pain threshold.  He yelped a little but didn't move my hands away.  Instead he mirrored my move and pulled hard on my balls.  I became so fucking worked up, I shoved him against the stall wall, kissing him and working his cock more intensely.  He shoved me back thinking that he would do the same but I hit the stall door and we went flying through it and hit the ground.  Neither one of us cared.  We rolled around on the ground kissing each other and pulling on each others cocks.  There was a crowd around us forming.  The floor was sticky and I thought about getting up, but I was about to blast my load and couldn't stop.  Hands were all over us, but it was so dark I couldn't see:  just hands everywhere and all over our bodies.  He was pulling and stroking my cock.  I was pulling and stroking his cock and kissing all over his body.  I blew my load into his hands making them more slick.  I motioned for him to stop jacking me but he was in his final moments and didn't stop for whatever reason.  I was in extreme pain now from him jacking me.  I can't take it when someone continues to jack me after I've come.  He heaved a little and then release indicating that he had cum too.  It was a little anticlimactic.  We got up off the floor and made our way through the crowd.  Shit, we had drawn a huge crowd and they were all fondling each other and jacking each other off.  Just as we hit the showers Jeff came running up to us, "Shit Jared, dude that was fucking hot.   Dude, I can't believe that was you in the middle of that crowd."

Jeff, the Asian guy (whose name I never got), and I showered and then I was ready to leave.  Jeff still hadn't gotten any, which totally surprised me.  He asked me to wait for him.  I knew I owed him that much and it had only been an hour, so I hung out in the Jacuzzi and walked around naked.  I didn't hook up with anyone else but got fondled a lot. 

While I walked the grounds, several guys kept asking me if anyone 'partied' here which I believe was code word for crystal meth.  That is such a turn-off for me.  That has got to be the worst thing to do to your body.  I told them no and that I was the wrong person to ask.

Jeff finally came out of the back.  I knew he was going after that desk clerk and I was right.

All in all, it was a good time.