Ten more on me

I don't know what this blog is about anymore.  I just re-read my about section and its just not entirely about fetishes anymore.  I mean they are definitely still there and I do plan to continue exploration and re-living them through the stories, but I'm a lot off-track in a good way with being in love, home buying and stuff.  It's weird how life takes you in a direction you weren't expecting, it's ever-evolving.

I think it is still about being completely naked.  Completely naked describes one of my many fetishes but it also describes my method of recollection and story telling.  I do it raw, right after it happens.  I don't really think about what I will write or how it will be received.  I almost never go back and re-read or edit what I have written.  I do go back to reflect on it later though.   I stand before you and write everything in a completely naked state of mind.  I hope this makes sense.  It's late and I am beginning to ramble.

Some days I say to myself, Jared dude, do you still want to keep blogging?  Everyday I am inspired to put something here, whether it's just a pic or a random thought like this or just about some little something in my life.  Everything here is a reflection of who I am and what I like.  So I guess the answer is yes, as long as I have inspiration and the time, I'll keep doing it.  It's fun to me.  It's an outlet.  It helps me reflect on things.  So yes, I'll keep doing it.  Yup, no doubt.

Something happened to me today that made me think back to my childhood.  I tried to make a list of ten things about them . . . about me.  It almost reads like a paragraph.  I'm leaving it though cause it's how I want to share this part of my life.

Here it goes.

1.  I grew up in South Beach Miami during it's urban decay period.
2.  My parents were poor 'starving artists'.   I was a starving boy.
3.  We were bought out of the area during the late 80's renaissance by developers.
4.  They still live near the area today.
5.  I hated school but knew it was the only way to get far away from being poor.
6.  My mom cursed the gays when they moved in to the area.
7.  I was so scared to tell her I was gay.
8.  I lived my life on the beach everyday after school.
9.  I fucking love the beach and miss living there.
10. But when I go back today, it has changed so much I don't even recognize it.

I hated many parts of my childhood but there were some awesome times.  My life has made me a strong but caring person who has a lot to give.  Much of the time I don't know where to focus that giving energy but right now, today, I know exactly where to focus.

So there it is, raw and completely naked.

jared

Oh yeah.  Nate says 'hey'.  I really wish you could see him laying next to me right now.  He is completely naked too, in a real good way.

Comments

[Jamie]

J, your blog is so cool, and inspiring. I dont think you should try to define it, it is what it is. This post is one of my fav's, i not sure why tho.

take care

[Jason]

Jared, keep it going. You're great at this. Blogging is a great way for me to say things I wouldn't normally say to people I know. It doesn't have to be about sex all the time, come on, how much sex do we really have (we CAN have a lot but we don't). There's a lot more than just sex for us gays.

[Jason]

In addition, you have great knack for finding great pictures to post. I can see they're a reflection of your taste in guys.

[JasonM]

When you're ready to quit, I'll say 'bye and good luck w/o regrets or whining. You talented, boy, and can lay it out direct.

[mike]

Please keep writing your blog, I read it every single day. You are a terrific writer. I live in a small town in Canada so I fanasize a lot about living your life.
keep it up!
mike

[Phil]

I'm an addicted reader too. I think you have great aethetic tatse in boys, and an appealing, unaffected way with your prose. I look for something new every day.

I long ago concluded that your 'completely naked' title had little to do with dress and everything to do with emotional exposure. Certainly it seems that way to this reader.

[Sue]

You hold your soul out naked for all to see Jared. That is why we read your blog.

[David]

Don't worry about defining your blog. It will define itself. You're a lucky fellow.

[mailliw]

Jared, you should not stop blogging about your life! If you stop, you would deprive me of my daily dose of competely naked... Please continue to elaborate your interesting events with Nathan and the rest. I wished i could live like you!

[Boyd]

Caught your blog linking through someone else along the way. The name caught me at first. The pictures caught me next, but truely whats kept me enthralled is what you have to say and how you say it. Totally amazing. Take care and best wishes on the love thing.

[Robert N Lng Beach]

Maybe a topic a tad to personal, but did you ever come out to your Mom? Same reaction to the gays moving in to SoBe or less dramatic?

[jared]

Hey Rob. Yup. It was really hard but I came out to my parents. My mom was very dramatic about it for about a week. They have never really accepted it, but say as long as I am happy with my life they will support me. I'm not sure what they would do if they really knew what I was into.

[Jeff]

Jared, I can't tell you how much I appreciate your blog. I certainly enjoy the sex and I enjoy the writing but more than that I enjoy your openness and honesty. Do what you gotta do, but if you stop, I would really miss you.

[everett]

I moved to South Beach in August and I'm still forming my opinions. Even though I'm new here, I can see a difference between the remnants of the past and what has taken over. Some say the gays are the ones who revitalized the area, but you could also argue that this revitalization will be it's undoing. When I go to "the beach" to swim or lay around, I almost never go to South Beach, even though it's just a walk away.

I like your blog because it satisfies a lot of things at once. Porn makes you horny, sitcoms make you laugh, the discovery channel teaches you, but your blog successfully does these things simultaneously. Keep it up as long as it helps you, though. After all, you're ultimately doing it for yourself because you're stripping your life completely naked.

[Jeff]

Great post. I love when people share memories especially in relation to issues surrounding coming out or being gay. Thank you.

[Mark]

I am BI and from the conservative midwest and would love to find a gay Doctor who would give me an exam that required a semen sample. I think my fetish started when I was about 8 or 9 (some 40 years ago)and had to get my temperature rectally followed by a shot in my bottom. I threw an absolute fit. Well Dad had enough he pulled my pants and underwear off, pulled me over his lap and spanked my bare bottom hard and fast in front of the doctor and nurse. Afterwards he stood me up and told me to do as I was told or he would spank me again in front of them. Both of them had what I thought smiles on. the nurse grabbed my hand and guided me to the exam table and instructed me to bend over at the waist and put my hands on the table and to spread my legs. With one hand she spread my cheeks and told me this won't hurt just relax...Well little did she know that i had been inserting bigger things than the thermometer...I was scared I would get hard, which i did small as it was. I figured I would get another spanking for that ( no I got another spanking when we got home because I had disobeyed Dad in front of the Doctor and Nurse) finally the nurse pulled it out wiped it off and announced no fever. The Doctor said good we can give him his shot and be done with it. The nurse held me around the waist as the doctor gave me the shot...It didn't hurt near as bad as i thought. we left the office and as soon we entered the driveway dad told me to stand by his chair and pull my pants down...of course I was crying but knew I had no choice. this spanking was worse than the first, but I was tingling afterwards and went up to my room found one of those big pencils and shoved it in my hole trying to repeat the feeling at the Doctor's office. Since then I have never turned down a rectal exam and have even lied pretending to have spotted blood in my semen. That worked out well because an intern was with my Doctor and the Doctor asked if I minded if the intern watching and then practice. I was naked and he had me lie on my side as he thoroughly massaged my prostate. As he pulled out I think he noticed I was rock hard because he chuckled and told the intern it was his turn. He felt around and asked if he was hitting it like the Doctor. I told him he was hitting it but not like the Doc. With that he withdrew the Doc laughed as he slapped my ass and cleaned my hole with tissues. My ultimate would be to be massaged to orgasm after a hard spanking by the nurse and/or Doctor