Hey guys. I'm so sorry about the quality of my posts lately. My blog is boring because my life is boring. I have shifted so far away from any type of sexual adventures these days. My life is about changing my career, remodeling my home and just being with Nathan and Jeff (like we sit here and just stare at each other cause we are too tired to do anything else).
Is this just a phase and will I get back to stuff this blog is made of? I don't know. Only time will tell. For the first time in two years I have thought of just killing it.
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pic from allamericanguys.com and not related to the subject matter . . .
Um . . . ok . . . so . . .
Something happened to me last night that I never ever dreamed would happen. I'm not totally concerned about it but it happened and I'm not sure exactly what it means. I went for my monthly shiatsu massage with this guy that I've been going to for a year now. It isn't meant to be sexual, in fact it is meant to be very therapeutic. But, because he doesn't drape, we are friends and he only does it for me cause he knows I don't like being draped, and because I am always prone to erections, I usually, ok always, get an erection every single time I turn over. Then for the next half of the session I ride a wave of getting an erection, then go soft, then get an erection again until it is finally over and he completely covers me in layers and layers of towels and blankets and I fall asleep.
I was completely soft the whole time. I didn't have even a twitch. I noticed and then even tried to think sexual thoughts to see if I could will it erect. Nothing! That was the weirdest fucking feeling I have ever had. I felt like there was no life in my penis whatsoever.
I'm getting erections now, I masturbated 3 times already today and sure to have sex with N, and I have nocturnal erections and my usual morning hardon so I'm fine. At least I think I'm fine.
Ok so I know it is probably shallow to post this and I'm really not sure why I'm about to hit the publish button but I am. It is part of what is happening to me and I'm just going to hit . . .
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