Completely Naked

Denial

Nathan has taken a very dominant role in our lives lately.  He's noticed how much I'm turned on by it.  I've noticed how much I'm turned on by it.

He won't allow me to touch my genitals in anyway.  Only he is allowed to touch them.    He also won't allow me to cum.  I've been denied both the pleasure of touch and orgasm for a week now and it is driving me mad.  He makes me walk around in only a shirt, no pants and no underwear.  My cock is so hard and dripping all the time from not cumming.  I don't know how long I can last.

He's been getting off by forcing me to suck and be fucked by him.  Completely satisfied, he goes to sleep and I am left with a perpetual hard-on and sexual frustration.

I know however, when he finally touches me and makes me cum it will be the hottest orgasm, at least I hope it will be.

I guess you can add domination and cum control to my fetish list now.  It is finally something we both completely enjoy.

Oh and happy Pride month.  It almost slipped by me.

I love . . .

I love when Nathan is laying on the bed naked.  I love looking at his hard, rippled abs and his big chest.  I love running my hands through his shoulder length black hair as I mount him naked.  I love when his hard cock makes its way into my tight hole.  I love slowly riding him up and down, watching his face contort with pleasure.  I love looking down at my own tight skinny body, my hard-on bobbing up and down as Nathan fucks me, my pre-cum dripping on his smooth skin.  I love when he gets close and screams my name, "Fuck Jared, fuck.  I'm cumming, I'm cumming."  I love the sensation I get when his cum fills my body.  I love watching my cum shoot high into the air as he cums.  I love laying in his arms when it is over.  I love when he says to me, "I love you Jared."

Hope you guys have a great weekend.

j

A brief moment

I could tell he was frisky by the bulge in his underwear.  He was jumping around, teasing me, kissing me on the neck and slapping me on my ass.  I kept brushing him away.  I was busy.  That's what happens when you are in a relationship.  You get busy.  You can get it anytime.  You don't have to do it right then.  It can wait.

Back to the GYM!

Nathan challenged me to post this and then commit to hitting the gym.  He says it is time to get back to the gym again before the holidays and lose that extra layer.  This is my before photo . . .

Back to work for Nathan

Nathan is getting himself all ready to go back to work this fall.  I am so jealous that he gets summers off from work.  He went to get his haircut and I thought he would come back with it short again but he only had an inch cut and it is a bit more styled.  He is wearing glasses now instead of contacts.  I melt everytime he looks up at me in them and pushes his long hair out of his eyes.  He is so so sexy.

Our first night

We had been playing for hours since we arrived.  We hadn't even unpacked or looked around.  We just stripped our clothes and threw ourselves onto the bed, onto the floor, in the Jacuzzi, near the fireplace and on the balcony.

We kissed and touched each other.  Sometimes he spanked me playfully.  That always gets me going.    As we became more intense, I felt his cock knock against mine playfully.  I looked down to see two hard throbbing rods intertwined and laced with pre-cum.  I love watching our cocks pressing against each other.  Sometimes I just get so focused on them when we make love.

He followed my chest down to my abs with his warm wet tongue.  I giggled because it tickled.  I grabbed the tip of his cock just for a moment before it was out of my reach.  He had made his way down to my cock and enveloped it with his lips.  I felt the intense pleasure and warmness of his mouth as he sucked me.  I looked down at him and him up at me while he licked my balls and then plunged my cock deeply into his mouth.  I grabbed his long dark hair and braced myself to endure the intense sexual pleasure.  Sometimes I can't tell pleasure from pain when he licks the tip of my shaft.  Over and over his tongue glided against my pee-hole.  I took hold of his head and tried to pull him off me but he continued to torment me.

I looked over into the large mirror that stood next to the bed in the posh, beach-side San Diego hotel that we barely left.  There were two beautifully tan, naked males that lay in the bed, one way more muscular than the other, just like in some of those porn videos.  The muscled one, the one with the long dark hair, was just coming up from giving the thin one head when my attention was pulled back to my own pleasure.  Lips embraced lips.  He began to raise me up and mount me.

I felt a cock push in between my thighs and make it's way into my hole.  I spread my legs wide.  My sphincter enveloped his hardened, lubed cock as he slowly entered me.  He shuddered at the intense sensation of skin against skin.  I too shuddered for different reasons.  We had planned this.  We had agreed to abstain from all risky sex with others for months so that we could really be together like a couple.  This was our first time doing it bare. 

I grabbed my cock and began to stroke as I watch this hot muscular man fuck me.  His muscles twitched and flexed.  His face contorted as the energy flowed from the sensations of pleasure.

I looked back over into the mirror.  His ass flexed up and down as he pummeled my ass.  I saw him looking at us too.  We twisted around and I landed on top of him.  He continued to fuck me as I hovered over him.  I sat straight up taken all of him.  My cock was stiff and leaking pre-cum down my shaft and all over his abs.  I grabbed it again and stroked.

We flipped again and he was back on top where I like him.  I saw signs in his face that we were nearing the end.  "Oh fuck, Jared!  Oh fuck, I cumming!"  We stared at the two in the mirror as he unloaded his seed into my ass.  I came soon thereafter spilling it all over my abs.

It is so awesome to be in love.

Nathan and Jared

Saturday morning Nathan woke me early.  He was so excited, that he bounced up and down for me to get up and come outside.  I headed for the coffee pot but he insisted that we go out first and get coffee later.  I grumbled a little not realizing that my surprise (at least one of them) was sitting on my driveway.

I barely made it out of my door when I saw these gigantic blue ribbons flying in the wind.  It was also one of the most gorgeous days on record in SF.  As I made my way through the door I saw this stunning powder blue convertible with a huge navy blue ribbon on the hood.  "Oh my god," I screamed.  "Nathan what have you done?"

I ran down the steps and headed straight for the car.  He threw the keys at me.  "It's all yours bro."  I turned back toward him and we embraced.  I was slightly distracted by his shirtless torso before my attention turned again toward the car.

"Let me show you."  He took the keys from me and opened the door.  The smell of brand new leather, paint, and carpet filled the air.  "We just put the interior together yesterday."  It was magnificent.  He showed me everything, the engine, the tires, underneath the car, the trunk.  I thought I was loosing my mind.

We immediately took it for a spin, top down and shirts off.  He was still acting a little strangely.  I wanted to really take it out for hours but he wanted to go back to the house, have breakfast and shower.

"I have something else," he said on the way back.  "Let's go back and then drive up the coast." 

I was all for it as long as I was driving. 

We scurried back to the house, changed into 'something nice' as he put it.  At the last minute he threw in the surfboards and a pair boardies for each of us.  I knew he wouldn't be able to resist.  He had also brought a simple picnic basket he bought himself.  It was filled with food from one of my favorite Castro stores.  We made our way over the Golden Gate Bridge and then eventually up the coast.

He took me to one of my favorite spots, a cliff that stands about 20 feet high above the roaring Pacific Ocean.  He parked so that we could lean on the hood of the car and look out.  I knew then he was setting up to have a talk.  He is always like that.  Everything has to be in order and just so when we talk.  Most of the time we talk at the beach.  In winter however, a small bonfire that we sit around usually accompanies it.  If we can't get to the beach then we go on top of Twin Peaks and look out over the city.  I think he watched to many movies when he was a kid or something but it is so fucking romantic.

I can't even begin to write all the things he said to me.  Not because I don't remember it.  I just want to keep some stuff between him and me.  He ended it asking me to be his Life Partner.  I melted and cried and eventually, when I composed myself, said yes.

There were no rings, no fanfare, and no wedding.  We just aren't into the whole straight thing.  Maybe we will be when it is available to our people as a whole, I just can't say right now.  What we did was enough for us, simple but romantic.  It was just us and about us and nothing else.  We kissed and embraced and did some real naughty stuff, then we surfed.

The best moment for me, aside from the 'question' was us sitting together, surfboard next to surfboard, waiting for the perfect wave when Nathan paddled over and kissed me.  "We are one together," he said.  I will never forget that moment.

I thought back on our journey to now.  It has been only like 9 months of dating but a decade of friendship proceeded that brief period.  Even before we began dating I knew everything there is to know about him.  I am looking forward to spending the next chapter in my life with my best friend.  We are so open and honest with each other.  We love each other so much that I know it is for life.

We want to thank all of you for your well wishes.  It means a lot to us.  I'm taking this coming weekend and next week to hang with Nathan.  I will let you know where we went and what we did once we get back.  In the meantime the blog will entertain you by posting pics of hot guys it likes (my blog is gay too so I think you will like what he posts ;) ).

later

j

Joy!

I am the proud owner of a powder blue, 1972, mint condition, pimped out by Nathan, 450 SL Mercedes Roadster!  Oh . . . and um Nathan and I became official Domestic Partners in the great state of California this weekend. . . .

We are just getting back now and both exhausted from the surprises and romance so I don't have the energy to share all the details tonight. 

I just wanted to let you all know before we crash.

goodnight

j

Nathan is Acting Weird

pic source:  All American Guys

Something is up with him (and it isn't his cock . . . well ok it was earlier but that is a whole other story).  He is acting all nervous and he says he has a surprise this weekend.  He has never acted this way before.  I'm a little scared.

Recovered

He is fine.  Man, I have never seen such a fast recovery.  He is eating everything in site.  Our kitchen is bare now.  He is also horny as hell but I told him there was no way we were swaping fluids until I knew that fucking bug is completely out of him.  The weather here is beautiful and hot so he is also itching to go to the park and to the beach.

Now that he has his color back, Nathan looks hot all skinny.  His abs are busting out of his skin, yum!

He also noticed the big dent in his truck.  He just smiled at me and said, "I knew you wouldn't be able to stay out of my fucking truck."  I teared up and said I was sorry but he just didn't care at all.  "I'll have it fixed by next weekend," he said.

I think Jeff has a steady boyfriend now.  He's been seeing this guy for two weeks now.  Don't laugh.  Two weeks is an all time record for him.

I'm going to start back to work tomorrow and plan to get back to telling the rest of my Palm Springs story this weekend.

Have a great and casual friday . . .

j

Home

We are finally home!

Nathan is already walking around just a little and talking about going out for Pride.  I've got other plans for him though:  bed rest even if I have to tie him down.

Thanks so much for ALL your emails and comments.  I read them all on my blackberry at the hospital but wasn't able to respond.  It meant a lot to both of us.

Until I get him well and then catch up with work I don't think I will be able to post much but who knows.  I will at least give you little snippets like this one.

later

j & n

Pool Boy

I've decided to be THAT dirty old man when I get older.  You know the one.  My pool boy will look like this . . .

Update:  Nathan is back.  He looks sick.  He lost at least 20 lbs.  He caught a bug while down there and worked sick most of the time.  He has slept the entire time he has been back.  He has aged.  I am so excited he is back but I am so fucking worried about him.

Nathan Called

I am feaking out . . . in a good way!!!  Nathan called me this morning.  He is finally back in a somewhat civilized area and is on his way.  He will be here tomorrow!

We could only talk for a few minutes and I fucking cried for most of it.  He sounds really tired.  He also told me not to be worried but he lost a lot of weight and he looks older.  I told him I didn't care what he looked like as long as he was here safe in my arms tomorrow night.

I left work immediately to prepare all his favorite foods. and I'm taking off tomorrow to be with him.

Fuck man, I am never letting him do this again.  It was way too hard . . .

pic edit:  my bros at gaytwogether.com

Nathan I Miss You

My heart stopped when I saw this picture.  Nathan has this exact haircut except for the long sideburns.  Fuck I miss him even though I'm trying not to think about it.  Oh shit I hope he doesn't get mad that I posted such a close look alike.

Jeff and I are getting out of California for the weekend care of good old Southwest Airlines.  He has so many free tickets from his travel that it's not costing us to go some place warm.  He even dropped his 'boyfriend' of the week to go with me so I guess I'll owe him a blowjob or something ;)

I'll have my pc with me so I'll post if we have some down time.

later

j

Blueballs!

I opened the door to find Nathan standing in the hallway completely naked.  His body was beautifully tan as it always is.  His long dark hair hung partly over his face where I could just barely make out those big emerald eyes that always make me swoon.  He looked up at me and flashed those pearly white teeth.  "Hey little j," he said in the most romantic way.

Watching Nathan Shave

Nathan was shaving in front of the bathroom mirror naked this morning.  I watched from a distance as he rinsed the razor and then brought it back to his face.  Every muscle in his arm twitched as he carefully glided the razor over his stubble and then rinsed again.  He had no idea I was watching; watching his beautiful, tan, muscular and naked body flex and move as he shaved.  I was rock hard.

I waited until he was almost done, dropped my shorts and walked in behind him.  I put my hands on his shoulders and watched him shave the last of his stubble, rinse his face and then pat it dry.  I moved my hands over his shoulders and down his arms.  They were like granite.  He looked back at me in the mirror.

"Look at your body Nathan.  It is so beautiful."  I reached around and put my hands on his pecs and moved my hands slowly down his torso.  My erect cock rested in between his ass cheeks as he and I admired his body.  He flexed as I rubbed my hands over his body.

"Spread your legs dude."  He spread his legs as I cupped my hands around his ass.  I moved them toward his hole, "My cock wants inside you.  I want to fuck you while you watch in the mirror." 

He bent over slightly and braced himself.  I prepared my cock and then, with grace, entered his tight hole.  His sphincter contracted around my cock and I pushed my way inside him.  "Look at us Nathan.  Look at our flesh, our muscles.  Look at your cock dude.  I am fucking you and you are getting hard."   I know this sound cheesy now but at the time it made his cock hard like stone.

He rubbed his hands over his own torso as he watched me fuck him in the mirror.  I looked at him from behind as I plowed his ass.  God, he was so hot standing there, his cock pointed straight up.  The sight of him brought me to climax and I unloaded my seed deep inside him.

He turned around, embraced me and kissed me.  "I love you Jared," he said.

Surprise Weekend

Hey dudes, did you miss me?  I haven't lapsed in posts this long in a while.  It wasn't totally my fault.  Nathan forgot to pack my laptop and I could only access the internet in very public places the last four days.

He surprised me last Thursday afternoon at work.  This was the first time he ever showed up there.  The recepionist knocked on my door and said there was a handsome young man with flowers for me.  I looked out my window to see Nathan with flowers and our luggage in tow.  All the women of the office were peaking over their cubes at him and then looking back at me.

"Hi," I said.  "What's going on?"

"Let's go dude.  I have a surprise for you."

"Nathan I have another meeting after this.  I also have work tomorrow.  I can't go anywhere."

"No dude, I got your whole calendar cleared.  Let's go."  I pulled my calendar up on my computer and sure enough it had been complelety cleared.  I called my assistant.  She confirmed.  So I locked up and followed him out.

Beach Massage

and were back . . .

What a fucking great weekend.  We stayed at this hot resort, did the beach thing Saturday and then drove back up the coast on Sunday.

Weekend Away

Nathan and I will pick up where we left off in our courtship this weekend.  It's time for me to step up and woo him.  I am surprising him with a trip to Monterey, just south of here.  It's supposed to be a beautiful weekend finally!

Jared and Nathan become One

Fuck I love the taste of Nathan.  When he's all sweaty I love to lick his salty pits, biceps and chest.   I like to lick every inch of him; his balls, his ass, his hole.  I love licking his hole, especially after his workout.

When he got home from the gym tonight I took control.  I made him strip naked.  I kissed his pouty lips.  I kissed his neck and licked every inch of his body.  He smelled like he hadn't showered for days.  I love when he smells like this.  It's better than any cologne you could find. 

I got him so horny, he let me fuck him.  It was time for me to take control for once.  I entered him slowly, feeling my way into his ass, feeling every sensation.  He has a tight little hole.  I fucked him gently.  I made love to him, kissed him and hugged him.  His cock was hard as I fucked him.  I watched the pre-cum release from his cock.

For that time, I felt like Nathan and Jared were one.  I'm so in love with him.  I would do anything for him.

Nathan comes home

Another hottie found on flickr . . .

Nathan's coming back to SF in less than 3 hours.  He's been out of town for two days but it feels like a month.  I am so excited.  I have something to ask him tonight.  It's something Jeff came up with.  I can't tell you until my next post for fear he may read this in the airport.

Hottie and his friend . . .

Jeff came over and slid into my bed at 2:30 this morning.  He said he kept trying to wake me to talk but I kept hitting him and telling him to fuck off and go to bed.  I don't remember this at all.  He slept in my bed and then told me his idea this morning.  I was a little shocked that he was there when I woke up.

I'll let you know how it turns out.

j

My boyfriend

Nathan and I went on our second date: an early dinner and then a movie.  I was back before 9pm.  He didn't even come in.  He had to get up really early to catch a plane and will be gone for a few days.  We kissed at the door and said goodbye.  I teared up.  I don't know why.  It's not like he doesn't go back home every Sunday night.   He held me close and said he could spend the night.  I knew he couldn't though and walked him back to his truck.

We talked mostly about our relationship at dinner and where it is headed.  He said he was falling more and more in love with me as each day passes.  It's happening for me too.  We held hands walking around the movie theatre.  I was proud to have him at my side.  My inner voice kept saying, over and over again, 'look at me, look who is at my side, this is my boyfriend!'

Nathan gave up his weekend for me

Nathan stayed home with me this weekend.  It didn't take him long to make up his mind.  Jeff found some other dudes to go snowboarding with.  Jeff was sneezing and coughing when he left so I know he is probably miserable now but he is doing what he wanted to do.

Nathan bought ingredients at Whole Foods to make me soup for my cold.  I'm already starting to feel much better.

Since I was home and bored, I made space for him in my closet for some of his things.  I showed it to him when he got back and asked him to bring some stuff over permanently.  He smiled.  His eyes lit up.  He hugged me and lifted me up as my blanket fell to the ground.  I was naked underneath and got a hard-on as we kissed.

He asked me on another date Sunday night if I am feeling better.  I should be ok by then.  He is in the shower now and is sleeping over tonight.  I can't wait to have his strong muscular arms wrapped around me.

Number Fourteen

Nathan picked me up around 7:30pm and we headed over to dinner in the Mission.  It was freezing out (for California).  We had planned to stroll over on foot but it was just to damn cold for me and I called him up and demanded, in a cute way, that we drive over.  Its no secret that I am a wimp when it comes to whether.

I heard his truck door slam outside, he insists on driving this really old, moderately restored 1940's/50's pickup truck.  I peaked outside as he walked up, his footsteps pounding the stairs leading up to my place.  He was so fucking cute all dressed up in his dark blazer and dress denim jeans.  His tie was meticulously disheveled, his hair perfectly straight and his 5 o'clock shadow nicely grown in.   

I greeted him at the door, we kissed and I invited him in.  He had beautiful red and white speckled roses in tow.  He was nervous.  This was our first official date in the 'courtship'.  Yeah, we have gone out numerous times and known each other for years but it was different now.  We were different to each other, in a good way.

On the way to the restaurant he took my hand in his in between shifting gears.  I teased him about having to split his attention between his two loves, the truck and me.  I was also praying that we didn't break down on the way there.  Although it would have been hot to watch him take off his shirt, as he always does, lift up the hood and go to work on whatever the hell broke this time.  I wish he would get rid of that truck but he loves it and so I'll live with it.

About halfway there I noticed he left his surfboard in the cargo area.  We had to turnaround and go back to my place to drop it off.  He apologized over and over but it really didn't bother me.  Then we couldn't find parking, which made us even more late for our reservation and our having to deal with a very upset host.  I was to blame for making him drive.  We could have just walked the ten or so blocks and been there already.  I made sure that he knew that it wasn't his fault.  He was a little down and starting to have a bad night.

He had already called ahead and had the table set with rose pedals; a small package that I assumed was number fourteen, and a bottle of sparkling bubbly.  He ran around the table and pulled the chair out for me.  We sat, drank and eventually ordered.  Nathan told the waitress this was a romantic occasion for us and that he was madly in love with me.  I don't think she knew what to do with that and just read us the specials and took or order.

Before our meal arrived he gave me the present, a very small box wrapped in the same pink paper most of the others had been wrapped in.  I tore it open to find a beautiful black braided choker with a small heart attached to it.  "I made it," he said excitedly.  "Not the heart.  I got that inscribed, but the choker."  I looked at the back of the heart: 'N heart J' it said.  I hugged and kissed him, then unclasped the choker and put it on.  I couldn't see it but from his expression he was very please with himself and happy that I was excited to put it on.

We finished dinner and then headed back to my place where we spent the night together;  great love-making sex, passionate love-making sex.  This was by far the most romantic Valentines I have ever had in my life.

Nathan Spanks Jared

I barely opened the door and Nathan entered with force and presence as he always does.  He is either yelling for me at the top of his lungs, or picking me up and kissing me or introducing a new friend or tickling me.  It doesn't matter what it is that he does, it's how he does it.  This time he had a gift and he wasn't about to wait for me to close the door and settle into the living room or bedroom.  It was Valentines gift number ten; a really small package wrapped in pink tissue.  He wanted me to open it right there at the door. "This is the first part of a two part gift," he said excitedly, "It was a little last minute planning," I took it from him, giggling and blushing cause even though it was number ten, I still couldn't get used to the idea that someone was treating me so sweetly.  Especially someone like Nathan whom I've known for ten years, who has been like a big brother to me in strength and wisdom, not in age, a big brother who teased and taunted me all those years but has now, somehow, fallen in love with me. 

It was underwear, tiny pink low rise briefs with little stars on them, and a second pair, white with fire trucks.  'Oh fuck', I thought, 'he read my blog entry' and then 'Oh good.  He's not mad.'

"Jared, you are going to strip and put the pink ones on for me and then you'll be getting part two."  I closed the front door, turned and headed for my bedroom.  "No!" he said sternly.  "You'll strip right here in front of me."  I stepped back to my original position, felt a stir in my pants, faced him and took off my clothes.  My cock grew as I stripped and was rigid by the time I pulled off my underwear.  I fumbled to take off the label pinned to the new ones and then slipped them on.  My cock wouldn't go in them.  I kept pushing it down to the side to tuck it but it kept popping back up.  Nathan reached over and adjusted it so it was sticking half way out.  "This is how you will wear it."

He grabbed me by the arm, led me to the bedroom and pushed me down on the bed.  "Wait right here."  He left and headed toward the kitchen.  Seconds later he was back with a kitchen chair, placed it in the middle of the room and sat.  "Come here and lay across my lap."  I approached him and he pulled me face down over his lap.  Nathan has never done this before and he was so serious and into it.

Without warning and hastily, his hand landed squarely on my pink star underwear covered ass.  It stung.  He is strong and he wasn't taking a slow warm-up approach.  "You like that Jared."  A half yes was all I could say before his hand landed again.  "Fuck," I said.  He spanked me again.  Then another and another.  I squirmed in his lap.  The waistband of my briefs was rubbing against my cock.  He held my upper torso tight and continued.  "Ouch, fuck, Nate, dude," I yelled louder.  I started to tear up as the spanking went from painful to unbearable.  "Fuck Nathan," I screamed,   "Stop, fuck that hurts, fuck, fuck fuck!"  I wiggled my way out of his lap.

"And that was the second part of your present!"  He grinned and was quite proud of himself.  "Will you stand up, please" I said to him in a submissive tone. "And take off your shirt."  I unzipped his pants and yanked his underwear down.  His cock was hard too and pre-cum had stained his underwear.  I was happy.  This confirmed that he was as excited about this as it was exciting to me.

I wrapped my lips around his cock and looked up, past his abs and huge chest, at his eyes.  He was looking at me.  "You're my boy now Jared" I grabbed his balls and sucked on his cock.  I felt so warm inside having been spanked by him and now on my knees, submitting to him, giving him pleasure.  He moaned as I deep-throated him.  "You're my little Jared and no one else's."  "Oh yeah, that's right, suck my cock dude."

I pushed my underwear down under my balls and stroked my cock as I sucked Nathan's.  He took over and began fucking my mouth.  I held on to his balls, stroked my cock and tried not to gag as he went faster and faster.  "Fuck dude, fuck," he said as he tried to pull away.  His body gave up his cum before he was able to break away.  I held on and took it all in.  I wanted to eat his cum, to taste it.  I wanted some of him inside me.  Just about the time he was done, I shot my load. 

He bent down to kiss me but I yanked him down on to ground and straddled him, "Nathan, that was fucking hot dude."  He spanked my ass again playfully.  Let's go shower, I have pizza coming.

We watched TV while lying on the couch later that night; him in his hockey undies and me in my new fire truck ones.

Day at the Beach with Nathan

I am still mesmerized by the waves I saw the other day.  I researched Maverick's more in depth and came across these pics.  Nathan and I went back out to the beach today.  It was sunny and 70 degrees.  It has been sunny all week.  We live and breath by the ocean and the sun.

This is an example of the awesome power the ocean has.  I am so drawn to power like that.  We sat for hours, watching the waves, talking about life, about us, about where we have been together as friends and where we are headed in the future.  We had the greatest sex last night after he read my 'submissive thoughts' post.  I may write about it later.

He wants to 'court me properly' as he put it.  I laughed and asked him what that means.  He doesn't want to just go from being friends to being lovers overnight.  He wants to take me out on dates to great dinners, plays, and movies.  He wants to woo me with presents.  He wants to take me on romantic getaways.

Then, when the time is right and our love continues, he wants to ask me to be his partner in life, to get married, to be registered or whatever is available to us at that time.

I'm glad that he wants to take it slow and do this right.  I'm not yet where he is in our relationship and I need it to happen naturally.  I need to let myself get to where he is.  I know it will happen.  I feel it.

We are going on a proper date Tuesday.  He asked me to wear a dinner jacket.  I said ok as long as I could wear a surfer tee underneath it.  He laughed, kissed me on the forehead and said no.

Number Six

Nate is sleeping in my bed right now.  I'm not yet sleepy and won't be for a while.  He came over to give me present number six.  He wanted to take me out to a small cafe a few blocks from here to get apple pie, my favorite.  He was so exhausted from work but he so wanted to keep up the present giving.  I made him take off his shirt and relax on my bed while I massaged his shoulders and back.  He needs to rest and this was my way of forcing him to do it.  He got into it a little, then started to relax and fell asleep.  I watched him sleep for a bit and then decided to run to the store to get some eggs and bread for breakfast tomorrow.  It will be nice to wake up with him in the morning and turn the giving around.

So far this is what he has done:

#1:  Made a card out of paper and crayons with a short poem.
#2:  Left a love note for me on the kitchen table spelled out in candy hearts.
#3:  Gave me a bubble bath, but this time the water and candles were pink and red.
#4:  Cooked me dinner on the grill.  The steaks were heart-shaped.
#5:  Wore underwear in front of our friends that said Nathan loves Jared.
#6:  Tried really hard to stay awake and take me out for pie.

Jockstrap Party

The jockstrap party was nothing like I anticipated, so if you got your cock in your hand ready to stroke one out, you might want to put it back.   It really was just a bunch of dudes hanging in their underwear and watching the game.  There was a little action as a few coupled up and disappeared upstairs to the loft area, but mostly we all watched football, smoked pot and ate our weight in food.

Nathan though, my god, if I wasn't in love before, his actions Sunday would have sealed it for me.  We sat together in a big leather recliner.  He put his arms around me and constantly made sure I was ok and kissed me on the forehead in between yelling at the screen.  He jumped up and got me food and drinks.  He fed me with his fingers.  He made out with me several times, even during times when the rest of the boys were intensely yelling at whatever was going on.  His cock got hard when he made out with me.  At half time he went to take a leak and came back in pink underwear that said Nathan loves Jared on the ass.  Everyone teased him but he didn't care.  He said it was Valentines present number five.

After the game was over we headed back to my place.  He bought me a single rose along the way and then we spent most of the night together making love, getting to know each other's bodies.  He had to leave me late to ready himself for work.  I missed him as soon as he left.

If I'm not already there, and I really don't know yet, I think I'm falling in love with him.

Romance

For the first time in many years I am looking forward to Valentines.  I've known Nathan for many years and we have spent many Valentines together as friends just hanging out wishing we had boyfriends.  Neither one of us can believe what has happened.

How is it that you know someone for a decade, with no hint of liking each other, and then one day you find yourself falling in love.  It's happened to Nathan and me.  Everyday my love grows stronger for him.  I think about him so much.  Colleagues at work notice the change.

It's just half an hour before midnight of the first day of February.  Nathan is racing over here because he wants to be with me at the very minute the clock strikes twelve and then wake up with me tomorrow morning.  Jeff said he has every day of the fourteen days of this month planned out, each day more romantic than the next.  He wasn't supposed to tell but Jeff can't keep a secret.  Normally this type of thing would freak me out, I would feel smothered, but now I love watching him get so excited about it.  He is like a little boy with me. 

He does these things that seem so simple but are so fucking romantic.  The other day he prepared a bath for us, with just a few rose pedals, in this big old claw foot tub I have.  We were sitting opposite each other.  He breaks out into song, trying to be all romantic.  He knows he can't sing but he doesn't care.  He belts it out, singing into the soap and inserting my name into the song.  He is comfortable with me, with us and shows his true self to me always.  That's what I love about him.

Nate wants me to do it for him

Shit dude.  I should have seen this coming.  Nathan read by entry at work today and was waiting for me when I got home.

"Jared, man.  You've been holding out on me dude.  I want to see you do it like you wrote in the blog.  Right now dude." 

I tried to joke around with him but he was really serious.  He approached me and started taking off my clothes.  "I going to take off all your clothes and you are going to jack-off right here and finger your ass and eat your own cum like you did for those other guys.  Dude, I want to see you.

I got hard as he stripped me naked and pushed me on my knees.  I started to jack off just like I did that night: working my balls, sticking my finger up my ass, and licking the pre-cum off my fingers everytime it came out of my piss hole.  Nathan had grown hard watching me, pulled out his own cock and began to stroke.  We stared at each other intently stroking faster and faster.  Just like the other night I became more verbal as I got closer to cumming, and so did he.  It was like, "Fuck dude, fuck fuck" "Oh fuck, Jared dude."  "Dude, Nathan dude, fuck."  We  both use 'dude' way to much during sex.  We blew our loads at almost the same time. 

Nathan came flying at me and knocked me to the ground kissing me.  "Fuck Jared man, that was so fucking hot."  We kissed and rolled around on my hallway floor for a while.

He was ok after that but I thought for a moment he was really mad and we were going to have our first 'lovers quarrel'.  It just turned out he wanted to have hot masturbation sex.